freedom writers.

i don't know what it is, but everytime i see the trailer for that movie i start sobbing. well not sobbing but i get really emotional and i start crying. i want that so bad. i want to be a teacher so badly i'm breaking into tears now. ferrarone [resource teacher] once tried to manipulate my schedule so i didn't have my internship
i left the room and went to the bathroom and cried.
i want this and i want it bad. i want to be the teacher kids cry over not having year after year after year. the one that transformed their lives and got them eternally impacted their desicions, helping to take bad ones and make them good ones.
i love my students
so much.
they are my life.
each and every single one of them is so special and so unique. the body language of each one is INCREDIBLY different. there's only one that'll give me a look like "HELP" cuz she doesn't like to speak.

you'll see me in ten years
and i'll be teaching.
and you'll be like "but she was supposed to work backstage"
and i'll tell you how i gave that up to teach.
and you shouldn't be surprised.